I have this heavy feeling on my chest ever since January 15, 2018. I was browsing the news when I saw Dolores’ photo but swiped away because something distracted me. A few hours later her photos started to show up more and more, and I did notice the title saying “Died at the age of 46”. It felt like losing a family member, so bad it was. I first discovered The Cranberries in the mid-nineties, and this band almost immediately became one of my lifetime favorites. The music, lyrics, and Dolores’ voice were absolutely astonishing, extraordinary, and felt just like a breath of fresh autumn air. A couple of songs from her solo albums are also touched me deeply. “October”, “Ordinary Day” and “Apple of My Eye” – they still giving me goosebumps.
I have learned that trough the music, somehow, I develop a special one way bond with the band. I don’t know if it’s only me – doesn’t matter. Even if, at some point, I stop listening to the band, this bond remains. Hearing something from them is like hearing something from the long lost friend. Knowing that I won’t be hearing from them ever again is actually hurts.
She is gone, but will never be forgotten.